3 months

So i had my 3month check up at the health clinic with pheonix weight loss management... turns out ive lost 3cm off my waist and 5lb in total which seemed to fluxuate up and down so i havent done the best i could of.. but anyway my blood pressure has gone down too so thats pretty awesome!

Feel a bit meh still though so this is all :(...

Must change

"And that was it.. Right there. That was the moment I suddenly realised that unless something changed soon i was going to live a life where my major relationship was with a bottle of wine.. and id finally die, fat and alone and be found three weeks later half-eaten by alsations. Or i was about to turn into Glenn Close in Fatal Attraction.."

So ive recovered slightly now... i did race for life last Sunday had the support of my lurvely boyfriend Grahame :D and i walked with Bex for 3k then she got all energetic and ran lol im not at that level yet! So for starters the Boston Race for Life was infact nearly 6k so not only did i do it 20minutes quicker than last year i walked further than i thought so woo! felt good after.. well actually i nearly collapsed in a heap but i didnt! =]

I went back to the gym today after a much needed push by Grahame - i did get extremely lazy and scared in a way? i was too scared to go to the gym alone, too scared of what people would think of me, too scared that id be weak. So i went back today thinking id just manage 30mins but i kept pushing myself and i did from 8am-9.30am so not bad for me! Sweat buckets and i ache now but its all good. Im trying to lose the few lb i put back on - had a bit of a weakness for chinese and chocolate i think.. This all needs to come off! I refuse to end up like Bridget Jones lol!

I found out today my Hep B levels are fine to do my nursing course in September now. So the main goal is just to lose a lot more weight and be able to move around quicker and not get tired so quickly. Oh and also Rome :) i wanna wear nice things in Rome align="center">

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When in rome..

Sooooo.... i aint seen my nutritionist for 1 month and in that month, i managed to put 4lb on. DUH! i aint been gym, ive been eating badly.. i got fed up and im hating my job atm so all n all im pretty peaved off with life and chocolate and bad food seems to be the easier solution right now... (and yes i know its not) but ive lost all motivation in the world... silly me!

Went to London saturday and we went to the bizarre ball... it was bizarre... watching guys hammer nails through tongues and staple stuff to themselves.. nuts! We had our pic taken by a bizarre ball photographer though so if im in the magazine that'll be a bloody laugh!


Got race for life this Sunday so that'll be fun... i may crawl through it though especially if the weather is a scorcher! I am looking forward to it, its going to be weird running/walking/crawling it alone but nevermind music will save me eh! Just like one big 5k treadmill to do..

Off to Rome in August for "the romantic getaway" with Grahame, cant wait for it im so so soooooo excited! - i wanna lose another stone by then at least.. i want to wear them long shorts and not feel funny in them.. i need to be fit to do loadsa walking too so i best get to the gym!


At work tonight, tomorrow, friday, saturday though :( boohoo zapping it outta me!

Start nursing in September too - that'll be cool =] Cant wait for that! Only problem is id love to move to Lincoln now and im at Boston campus... bugger!

Anyway must go- bye!

Its official... i love clothes!

So yes still no motivation... helloooo motivation where are you? Everytime i make the effort to try and go gym i always find a reason or something that pops up to stop me going. I have to be weighed in 2 weeks by my nutritionist... slightly worried about this now because i havent been doing a lot. Just prepared a salad to take to work with me and fruit etc just to try and stop myself eating loads of chocolate cos i cant control this mouth of mine! lol

Bought a nice skirt the other day from Peacocks - actually managed to get a size 18 on! which shocked me a lot - yeah its a bit tight but 18!! lol Im trying to enjoy summer this year, i spent too many years hiding in jumpers and long trousers cos i was too scared to show off my body. This is the skirt :)



Went to tesco yesterday and F&F were having a sale on. We looked at some clothes then i found one i really loved a nice japanesey top - naturally i went for size 20/22 and then i put that back and i went for size 18 instead. Tried it on in the changing rooms and it actually fit perfectly! So thats quite good =]


I went to the cinema last night to see Prince Of Persia - i loved it =] Had a really nice evening - resisted buying a whole bag of malteasers so happy about that! Had a bit of popcorn but not loads either so thats good =]

So anyway working a back to back now so must go to work unfortunately! :( bye bye!

Food = addiction

It's been 1 whole year since i joined weightwatchers and ive lost 49lb!! :) and...

it's nice weather! for us and the ducks i guess.

I've been struggling recently with the weightloss.. temptation seems to be winning around me right now. The fridge is packed full of chocolate (not by me) the cupboards full of crisps.. theres nothing healthy and all i have to do is wander into the kitchen and all hope is gone. I cant seem to get into the swing of preparing my own foods and not eating bad things constantly!

Im finding it hard just to get outside and exercise.. even the gym seems like a chore now. Something tells me i may of hit that brick wall and struggling to get over the top of it now. There i am sat on that bench before the wall and refusing to move!


Althought saying this... a lovely lady called me an inspiration =] a week or so ago and this hasnt happened before - so thank you for that! This spurs me on to do well i just need to get my bum in gear and do this. I like being someones inspirtation! Makes me feel quite good if i may say so myself. But back to the point i am slacking.. i need something to kick me into shape. I went to town yesterday thorntons had a sale on and i managed to eat my way through 6 chocolate melts... just cos they were moreish and i had no self control it flew out the window i think..

Race for life is in 22 days ive raied £50 so far I havent been training for it either so i guess i'll just be walking it this year - but tbh i am doing it alone too so i'll whack in the headphones and walk my butt off! i need to beat last years time of 1hr 10mins. Least i'll get a tan doing it i guess and raise money for a good charity so all around its win win!

Off for a picnic soon need to jump in the bath - been hit with the lurgi so im not in the best mood to go to work tonight 3-11pm :( not great i guess sneezing over the guests is going to be fun. Not! Hope i get better soon i do not like being un-well :( Maybe i should focus more on loosing weight after this.

On the ball

Cinderella is going to the ball next month... yay!

And hopefully in this gorgeous dress!...

So a lot has happened

Lots has happened - and i mean LOTS! good things though :) im extremely happy right now - except i miss my amazing fella cos hes in Greece getting a tan back Sunday though =] then i'll be made! I miss him so much, it sucks, im just counting the days down now until Sunday then i get to see him =] Hes so special to me, i love him to bits - hes gorgeous, lovely, kind and himself =] im all loved up its great! You dont realise how much you miss someone til they're gone for a few days!

So back to the weightloss mission - i went for my weigh in with my nutritionist - she talked about Race For Life, Nutrition (obviously) and Physical Exercise (oooo-er). She also gave me a pedometer which is kinda fun to wear except i got no where to put it on my bloody trousers at the gym so - fail! Anyway back to the weighing.. i got weighed and lost.. 4lb! oh yes in 2 weeks. Getting back on track feels so good, the enormous of hours spent at the gym however did not!

Me and Grahame were looking at old pictures of me last week and i found this one of me at my 21st Birthday - how nuts is that! its crazy how big i was then and didnt really care or notice it but looking back i do now and i look and feel so much better about how i am now!


Im still trying to run a bit of race for life in June, i got 2months until it really so i better get cracking! I can nearly run 1/2 a mile on the treadmill somehow i dont think i'll be able to run all of race for life i get knackered too bloody quickly!

I did this photo last week... im infact half naked in it, but i think i look good... its pretty much like "How to look good naked" except i took this myself.. with a camera and tripod.. i uploaded it to deviantart cos i love it and turns out A LOT of people love it too! so yay for body image =]



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